Waking Up Middle Aged
And It Feels So Complicated
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Comments (Let’s Chat!):
Have you reached the middle-age milestone?
If so, how did it make you feel?
If not, how do you think it’ll make you feel?
How do you think you 10 years ago would see yourself today?
What music were you listening to 10 years ago?
Listening to:
I don't think 40 counts as officially middle aged yet... but 50 does, and I'm 52; which means I've gone through a lot of (peri)menopausal shit in the past ten years, which made me feel REALLY old (creaking bones, exhaustion, despair) but a little hormone pill set that right and now I must say, cheesy as it sounds, I feel pretty young again. A bit like in my twenties: enough energy to do the things I want, embracing a new freedom with open-hearted curiosity - AND I can do all of that now with well-earned Not-Giving-Many-Fucks-Anymore. Honestly, you're still a baby when it comes to getting old! :D
I haven't reached it yet and I feel conflicted -- aging is a goddamn celebration, there are no guarantees, and I want to be excited and hopeful about turning middle aged. But I also am afraid of time passing and not doing all the things I want to get done. Urgh.
I think 10 years ago me would be insanely jazzed to see where I'm at, and also surprised. I'm still listening to music I listened to 10 years ago, and 20 years ago, and I think it hits deeper the more time passes. Music is like a mug of tea with the bag left in it, it just gets stronger and hit harder when you go back to it years later.